Wednesday, April 27, 2011


Ratatosk-What I'm callling Batshit Adrian
Adrian- Term for normal Adrian
Kyou- Current more-calm-but-still-wants-Vindicta-dead-but-would-just-prefer-the-Vera-personality-back Adrian.

I will come up with(read: pick more of his characters') more names if more (psycho) personalities come up.

R.T. --> He's... Interesting, to say the least. I'm looking forward to whatever the PTC comes up with. I pray these guys do NOT fuck this over. I will be PISSED off. On that note, he(I'm calling it a he, yes. Old habits die hard) did have some really bad news...

Notification: Updating list of entities involved in original de-integration. Current list:

The |OC|  
(Slendy-boy, for those of you that don't know)
The Rake
The Dark One 
(I'm going to but a ? to the ones I don't know what they are. Anyone who knows, could you explain?)
The Black-Eyed Ones 
(? --> He is a god of some sort,correct?)
(Assuming "vampire")
(assuming "werewolf")
 Der Erlking
Avis Detrimenti
 Vulpes Victoria
 Oceanum Spolarium
The Jabberwock

I'll  be doing more research on my own when I have time. Time isn't something common place though. I tried to type the first part of this sometime this morning, and was interrupted by Nebula. It's true, blondie is still hanging around. And fragger, what a pain she is.

As for that list... If that doesn't define, "We are SCREWED" I don't know what will. Is there a trope for this?

Urgh. This is bad.

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Should I feel bad?

Probably. It's my fault they're involved, after all. Had I just not told them anything, and let myself suffer alone, they wouldn't be like this.

"Yeah, Gabe. Slender is a drug. It's a new name for LSD. I've gone on some fucking AWESOME trips. It's amaaaazzzzziiiinnnnnngggggg. Adrian didn't get me into it. Actually, he'll probably start bitchin when he reads this. So will V, too. xD" Had I told him that, he wouldn't be here. I'd be on my own and he'd be safely at home with his three brothers and his parents. Fuck it, why didn't I say that?

Now he's going to die because of me, more then likely...

And Adrian only got caught in because I had to tell him once Ver lost it. And I got her involved. And I couldn't keep her with me.

I tried and they wouldn't listen and now here we are. We're all going to die because I'm a dumbass and dragged them into this.

I'm such a rotten friend.

Vera, Adrian, Gabe... I'm sorry, I'm really sorry...

Friday, April 22, 2011

I... Apologize for my last post?

I was freaking out. I'm still freaked out. But I'm a little calmer now.

Having Gabe around has been surprisingly nice, despite the fact that we have to constantly keep moving because ol' tall dark and freaky has been showing up more (yay) since Gabe and I got together. Which, I mean, that's kind of meh, at this point. Because I'm not dead and I actually have company. A friend that isn't going to be prone to suddenly snap and grab me by the throat and choke the life out of me or shoot me or stab me or...

You all get the idea, right? Point is, I'm calm right now. It's more relaxed. I'm fairly certain that Gabe is fairly certain that I am certifiably insane. And yeah, he's... A lot nicer than his first impression was in criminology, but of course I'm sure the fact that he and Vera were friends and I talked to him a bit outside of school influenced that and...

URGH. He's just so damn normal. I can't adjust.

Oh well. At least he's not like Adrian or... Whoever/whatever Adrian has become. And he isn't like Ver- Sorry, Vindicta, old habits die hard, you know. He's just Gabe. He's just my friend. He knows who I am and what my full name is and he grieved with a (surprising) amount of people over my death/kidnapping/random as fuck disappearance I shouldn't have been able to pull off.

I don't know. I'm tired. I don't sleep worth a crap anymore. I don't think Gabe has noticed, seeing as he sleeps like a motherfucking rock. It's ridiculous. I've had to resort to pouring cold water on the kid to waking him up. And that usually only works with me nearly yelling and getting ready to jump up and down on his damn ribcage. I swear, I don't know how this kid does it.

...I'm younger than him and I'm calling him kid. How does that work? :/

Moving on.

Uh, well, I've been trying to be semi useful in comments again, when I have the time. The nightmares are back and increasingly worse, I'm just not sharing anymore. Yes, Gabe, that includes you in the I am not sharing. Can't be giving special treatment now.

I noticed a lot of the little groups of friends who support each other are becoming scarce again. Kind of sad. I guess it's because so many have been lost or were killed. I just realized there are a bunch of people I used to follow that I have no clue what there fates are. It's depressing. Oh well, I'm glad I have most of my little group still together. Well, alive would be the better term. Since only God and Slenderslag know where Slice is. And -hopefully- Scott gets through round one of his little game okay(Fraggit Specter! GREAT going on that one!). And Lucien is okay, I think, although I'm not sure if he's posted recently or not. And Kay was the lucky winner of a mysterious prize.

Gabe is shooting me funny looks. I probably have some explaining to do when we get going again.

...Speaking of getting going again, I probably shouldn't have wasted so much time on a "Hey, I'm alive!" but I did... Oh well. Maybe I'll start coming up with something moderately useful again. Remember when I used to try that?

Tuesday, April 12, 2011




You fucking snapped? How the hell are you allowed to snap?!

YOU FUCKING JERK! I need you! Vera needs you! You think she's going to wake up any quicker when you've fucking lost it? You thing loosing your mind is going to bring anyone back?

I... I... Fucking damn it.

I met Gabe. It was awful. Slendy showed. Gabe's a runner now. We're staying together, because someone needs to show him the ropes and I am really fucking sick of being alone.

I'm going to go freak out a little more and maybe we'll keep moving.

Friday, April 8, 2011


If I read a shit load of 'LYKE OMG HE/SHE'S PHAKE? LIEK WHAT TEH EFFFFFF MAN?'  I am going to be annoyed.


Is it a good story? Y[ ] N[ ]
Do you like their plot? Y[ ] N[ ]
Do you like the characters? Y[ ] N[ ]
Do you look up to them/their thoughts/ their ideas involving the mythos? Y[ ] N[ ]

If you said yes to any of the above, then for the love of all that is holy, QUIT WHINING!

Primus, really people? It's a tall faceless guy in a business suit that grows -tentacles- out of it's -back- and eats -children-. What kind of writer wouldn't take a free use character and run with it just as far as they possibly could?

And quite honestly, some of your stories really do suck. I wont mention names, but I lost the patience long ago to read through 30 pages of 'LYKE OMG HAI AI CAN'T SPULL FUR SHIZ BUUUUAT SLENDY IS FOLLWIN Me LyKe IsNt ThAt NuTs?!!!111!'

Just saying. I know my blog, on a personal level, isn't/wasn't all that great on a writers perspective. Any entries I would read back on, as a general rule I'd cringe. But than again, I am indecisive as hell, so that could contribute to any other writers out there going 'WTF is this person's PLOT?!'

But, of course, there is no plot. I'm just telling you what happens to me as I go.

Or am I? You can't be sure.

And there, my friends, is the beauty of the mythos.

I am off to go make some bad decisions.

[end rant]

Thursday, April 7, 2011


My knee hurts. I guess that is what I get for being a dumbass.

Oddly enough, even though I scraped it pretty good, my jeans are still fine. I guess that's a plus.

So, yeah. Long story short, Nebbie showed. I ran. And thought I could make a jump over a small set of concrete stairs with thin walls on either side. Any other time I could have done it. But the fates were against me today.

Sam jumped, Sam failed, Sam inserted her knee into the concrete she was attempting to jump, picked herself up, and kept limping.

Running from a girl that wants me dead and al I could think of was how embarrassed I was. Than again, I probably only got away because Nebula damn near pissed herself laughing at me.

Fuck Thursdays. They always did suck big time...

So yeah. I'm still alive, but I am still a clumsy dumbass.

Lets see, do I have anything kind of important to say? Aside from I am highly considering taking up Adrian's offer and giving up on Vera? No, I don't really think so...

On a lighter note:

Oh, I should probably mention that I'm doing something INCREDIBLY stupid.

I'm heading closer to home, to meet up with Gabe for a few hours.

Dude, if you pull anything to get me caught, I -will- fucking -kill- you. Just saying.

Urgh, I'm gonna get him marked. I shouldn't be doing this. Oh well, that's all for now.